This cartoon is very much about how I handle difficult feelings.
I start with the notion that I have the ability to solve my troubled feelings.
As if feelings are solvable.
As if I'm so clever that I can figure out how to have a life devoid of any feelings that are not on the positive spectrum.
As if there's a positive spectrum to feelings.
Anyways, it never works, and in the end, my feelings get felt.
And the longer it takes for me to get to feeling them, the more intense they are.
If I would just let them be, feel them as they arise, then they'll go away.
And here I am trying to control my feelings again.
It's exhausting.

(cartoon 184)